Would this be the year that everything changes? Would I be put into the class with the cute boy I liked? Would everything be different this year? Would I suddenly become popular?
Before the first day of school, I eagerly anticipated the possibilities.
I had a very vivid imagination and I would spend the night before dreaming about all the things that could possibly happen. I would suddenly have the courage to stand up to bullies, I would have the guts to talk to my crush. Perhaps this year I would find that best friend. (You know the one that acts like your house is their house, the one that you can say so much to with a look.)
However, things never seemed to pan out the way we imagine they would.
Life isn’t the romantic comedy that we thought we were starring in or a sitcom with a laugh track.
As we get older we face the harsh reality everyday. We experiencedisappointments, failed hopes, and desires unmet. We encounter hard things, impossible things, and failures.
If you are anything like me over time after years of disappointments, you stop dreaming, and stop hoping. You jump on the cynical and bitter train. You start to fear the first days, you start to fear what will happen next. You are waiting for the other hammer to drop.
None of your hopes and dreams have come true and you begin to fear that they never will.
As I write this, I am struck by the fact that this perspective is contrary to the what God says about our hopes and dreams. He knows us better than we know ourselves and none of this, none of our heartaches are lost on him.
So if you are sitting on the disappointed bandwagon like me, let me give you a new anthem for your soul.
“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28
Even in our suffering and disappointment God has a purpose in it.
“The steps of a man are established by the Lord, when he delights in his way; though he fall, he shall not be cast headlong, for the Lord upholds his hand.” Psalm 37:23-24
Though failures happen, he isn’t done with us yet. He has not given up on us, and even our dashed hopes are known by him.
You, the beautiful soul reading this, were stitched together by our Father the creator. He made you with a plan in mind.
He isn’t like us with good intentions and no follow through. His plans will come to fruition in his own perfect timing.
As you work through those disappointments and long lived desires of your heart, remember that you have not been left on this earth to bear these things alone or lightly. Delight in him and allow him to shape new dreams.
What are your new dreams? What disappointments do you need to let go of?