The day I ate half a giant bar of chocolate….

Okay, so maybe it it was 3/4 of the bar, but at least I had the restraint to not eat the last quarter.

I would like to say this was an isolated incident, but it wasn’t.  Tuesday, this was all brought on by the stress of a horrible day. I eat when I am stressed, and someone put a giant chocolate bar in my mailbox and school.  Who was this instrument of evil? (Okay, so I exaggerate, not their fault.  They were actually being so extremely thoughtful.)

In the end, I know that this bar of chocolate cannot actually satisfy or help in anyway, but I THINK momentarily that it will.  I think that food or sweets will give me peace and magically I will be more joyful and kind and gracious to the people around me. I think that this chocolate is exactly what I need to make things better.

But actually what it does is make me feel guilt and shame and experience a sugar low at some point of the day.  That peace isn’t going to come in the form of a candy bar, ice cream cone, or even in a happy hour spent venting about a stressful day.

I can only find the peace and joy I long for from directly from the source of all peace and joy.  The One who created this desire in me.  This song reminds me of where I can find my peace.

Running in Circles by United Pursuit Band

I’m so forgetful, but You always remind me
You’re the only one who brings me peace
You’re the only one who brings me peace
So I come, Lord I come I come, Lord I come
To tell you I love you
To tell you I need you

To tell you there’s no better place for me than in your arms
To tell you I’m sorry
For running in circles
For placing my focus on the waves,not on your face

You’re the only one who brings me peace
You’re the only one who brings me peace

In the storm In the storm

What do you run to find peace where it won’t be found?  How do you bring yourself out of that? 

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