Sometimes my thoughts spiral out of control….
….and I end up curled in a ball on my bathroom floor freaking out about life.
Sometimes the lies are so loud that I can’t hear the small quiet truths.
That happened this week.
Maybe I am weird but I worry, I am anxious, I am torn up about the should of, could ofs, didn’ts, and didn’t want tos.
So much so that I am sitting in my car breaking down because I don’t know what to do next.
One of the blessings that I have in my life is this person…..
She listens, speaks truth, shoots it straight, doesn’t let me believe the lies, and all the while kicks my butt into shape!
I know that when I see her, she will be in my corner, not to just build my ego or feed into my crap, but she will be in my corner and believe in me when I don’t believe in myself. I am so much stronger now mentally than I used to be, and I know it, but sometimes I forget. She reminds me of that.
She reminded me this week that I do not have to be weak anymore, and it has made all the difference.
It is almost as if, even though I have lost the weight, I am still wearing all my old clothes. It doesn’t make any sense.