Yesterday and Today, I am home sick from school. I feel so guilty and bad that I am home sleeping and resting and everyone else has to go to school and class. Everyone keeps telling not to feel guilty or bad that I am sick. But I do, I feel bad, that I letting everyone down because I can’t do it all.

However, I see this as God telling me that I have to slow down and get my rest. I can’t do it all. I don’t have to be perfect. I feel like this is a lesson that has been a long time coming. This perfectionistic attitude is coming out full force in my experience student teaching. As well, I have always known that I am a people pleaser but this is where it shows so much. I don’t want to let everyone down.

How much is this feeling just the enemy trying to discourage me?