no one says it
but i feel the pressure
“she is the pillar.
she won’t ever change,
we can depend on her
to do what is expected.
she will remain strong.”

but what happens
when i fail
when i drop the ball
when i am weak.
on whom will they depend
someone else, someone better, stronger
will replace me.

there will be no need
there will be no purpose
for me in their lives.
then where will I be.
where will I go.

everything that I have
held in importance will
come crashing down on me.
Why did I allow myself,
to be put in this position?

I brought this upon myself.

I am already down, and now I have been kicked. I wish I knew how to fix it.